Time to blog again!

Wow I haven't blogged in some time.

I think its because I don't think anyone is interested in reading what I write, so why write? But then I realized that writing can be therapeutic for myself. And I could use some therapy right now.

My boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up about 2 weeks ago. I'm trying to be okay, but I'm not sure I am. I miss it. I miss all of it, right now I even miss the fighting as sad as that sounds. And I can't just move on, because he's still my best friend. I don't really know how to move on right now, even though I want to. I want to heal and move on with my life.

I'm leaving for Europe in about 2.5 weeks. I'll be gone for 4 months. Maybe that will give me enough time and distance to find some healing. I want to find a soul-mate, I just don't know where to look, or if I'm ready to look. I just don't know. I feel like I've got most of my life on the right track, I'm generally a happy person, I'm going places, I'm attractive...so why doesn't anyone want me?