Death and Cancer

As I write this a woman I have always looked up to is going to pass away sooner or later from cancer. Another life taken far too early. Another devout christian called home too soon.

My heart aches for your family, I can't imagine what they are going through. I remember coming into the lodge in the morning at camp and seeing your smiling face, always ready to take on the day! You have such patience, such a warm, kind heart, such a love and passion for people.

I hope you know how you have impacted the lives of others, and that we will always remember you and hold you in our hearts.

The first time I shaved my head I didn't really know anyone to do it for, I just knew it was something I should do and something I could do. The 2nd time was kind of the same thing, no one specific in mind, I just knew it was something I could do to help the world.

Now there's so many people I wish I could do more for, so many people I could dedicate another head shave to.

And now I don't know what elese to do other than beg God to bring them comfort, and let them know they are loved in their last moments, and hope that maybe someday cancer won't take lives so prematurely.

So much on my mind...

So I'm trying to study for another final tomorrow, but I just have so much on my mind. :S Not just my trip now.

I'm supposed to do an honours thesis in Linguistics next year, but the professor I want to supervise it might not be able to afterall. I won't know for sure for a couple weeks but of course here I am thinking about my options now.

I could:
1) Find a new supervisor in the department.
2) Drop my honours designation from my degree.
3) Try to switch my honours degree to my German degree.

But that being said this supervisor I potentially have now might still be able to. So I guess I should just stop stressing about it and wait to see what happens, then re-evaluate my options.

*Sigh*

2 Weeks!!

I leave for Europe in 2 weeks!! I'm getting so excited that I'm finding it hard to study for school.

Its going to be the most amazing (and perhaps expensive) summer ever!! :D:D

Perhaps I'll even return with a German boyfriend. :P lol jk.

What will I be doing in Germany? Well I'll be in school for 7 weeks, travelling for 3 weeks, and then working for 8 weeks. I'll be back early September. I plan on keeping this blog updated with travel diary type stuff as well as photos hopefully! So stay tuned!!

Time to blog again!

Wow I haven't blogged in some time.

I think its because I don't think anyone is interested in reading what I write, so why write? But then I realized that writing can be therapeutic for myself. And I could use some therapy right now.

My boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up about 2 weeks ago. I'm trying to be okay, but I'm not sure I am. I miss it. I miss all of it, right now I even miss the fighting as sad as that sounds. And I can't just move on, because he's still my best friend. I don't really know how to move on right now, even though I want to. I want to heal and move on with my life.

I'm leaving for Europe in about 2.5 weeks. I'll be gone for 4 months. Maybe that will give me enough time and distance to find some healing. I want to find a soul-mate, I just don't know where to look, or if I'm ready to look. I just don't know. I feel like I've got most of my life on the right track, I'm generally a happy person, I'm going places, I'm attractive...so why doesn't anyone want me?