For most of my life I've never felt like I've "belonged" anywhere. I always feel like an outsider trying to fight her way into the inside. Sometimes I go the other way and try to not fit in and try to push people away, because I know that I'll never truly fit in.
What is this desire to "fit in"? Why don't I feel like I belong.
I think growing up without any extended family has been a part of it. I mean they're family...you're supposed to fit in right? But then when we go visit its always just that, I'm always still just a visiter, never an insider. I'm not even an insider in my own family.
So then I try to latch on to someone else's family, I try to get them to include me in family things. But then I don't get invited to something and I feel like the door is bashed right back into my face and shouts "NO! You don't belong here either!" And the door is right, I don't "belong" to anyone eles's family either.
So I guess I'll just keep searching for somewhere I fit in, somewhere I belong.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
My thoughts on the proposed coalition government.
I'm not against the idea of a coalition government, what I'm against is a party leader who already agreed to step down leading this government.
A coalition government might be what Canada needs since no one seems to want to let the Conservative minority government do what they want to do. What I'm against is playing a game of Big Brother with our country and handing out veto power to a separatist party.
What Canada needs right now is a strong leader, but none of the current political parties are able to offer us that. I'm not really a fan of Harper anymore, but I'm not really a fan of the idea of Dion leading a coalition government. Also I wish they just did this a few months ago instead of sending us to the polls in the first place. Voting was really a waste of time now, wasn't it?
A coalition government might be what Canada needs since no one seems to want to let the Conservative minority government do what they want to do. What I'm against is playing a game of Big Brother with our country and handing out veto power to a separatist party.
What Canada needs right now is a strong leader, but none of the current political parties are able to offer us that. I'm not really a fan of Harper anymore, but I'm not really a fan of the idea of Dion leading a coalition government. Also I wish they just did this a few months ago instead of sending us to the polls in the first place. Voting was really a waste of time now, wasn't it?
Monday, December 1, 2008
Random thoughts of the day.
So I'm sitting outside my class waiting for it to start, and I'm
thinking to myself...where has the time gone? I can't believe I'm
almost done half of my 4th year in university. I'm almost 21 too! Is
crazy cuz i remember my first day of U of C 101. I remember my first
few days of classes, I remember my first university final. And here I
am so many years later still enjoying it, though it does come with
plenty of stress and challenges.
In the next 15 days I have 2 oral presentations, 1 take home exam, 2
term papers, and 3 final exams. Oi. I know I'll get through it, its
just a question of how well. School has to be my first priority, not
work or anything else.
On another note I'm considering running for the Humanities rep in the
SU next year. I've been encouraged by a few people, its just figuring
out if I'll have the time too because of my honours thesis.
thinking to myself...where has the time gone? I can't believe I'm
almost done half of my 4th year in university. I'm almost 21 too! Is
crazy cuz i remember my first day of U of C 101. I remember my first
few days of classes, I remember my first university final. And here I
am so many years later still enjoying it, though it does come with
plenty of stress and challenges.
In the next 15 days I have 2 oral presentations, 1 take home exam, 2
term papers, and 3 final exams. Oi. I know I'll get through it, its
just a question of how well. School has to be my first priority, not
work or anything else.
On another note I'm considering running for the Humanities rep in the
SU next year. I've been encouraged by a few people, its just figuring
out if I'll have the time too because of my honours thesis.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Time to start blogging...
So I've decided to start blogging again. Maybe it will help me sort out all the thoughts in my head that I usually leave unsaid. Maybe it will help me become less of a stress case because I won't have to carry those thoughts around with me anymore.
My first thought is in regards to the free-speech and Pro-Life debacle at the U of C this past week. Since when is showing horrific posters to people speech? Doesn't something stop being a right when it impedes on other people's rights?
What about my right to get to class without being bombarded with images I don't want to see? By the time I come across the "Caution" barricades I can already see the posters. And really the posters haven't changed in the last 3 years, so do they really need to set them up facing outwards again?
To all those who are screaming "freedom of speech" at the University for threatening to arrest these people, and claim that there should be this "sort of debate" going on on a University campus - when was the last time you were part of the university community? Probably a long freaking time. Who are you to prescribe what should be occurring in one? Healthy debate is good yes, but subjecting unwilling participants to view graphic and disturbing displays is a whole 'nother bag of potato chips. So just shut up and let the University alone. You probably never even saw the posters, but you heard them crying out for their right to free speech and felt the need to jump right in.
What about my rights as a passerby that are being infringed on? The SU and University are in support of the rights of free speech, but they also recognize the rights of the passerby. Thank you SU and the University for protecting the rights of your students! I stand by your decision. For those on the outside of the situation who really have no idea what's going on, please just stay on the outside of the decision.
My first thought is in regards to the free-speech and Pro-Life debacle at the U of C this past week. Since when is showing horrific posters to people speech? Doesn't something stop being a right when it impedes on other people's rights?
What about my right to get to class without being bombarded with images I don't want to see? By the time I come across the "Caution" barricades I can already see the posters. And really the posters haven't changed in the last 3 years, so do they really need to set them up facing outwards again?
To all those who are screaming "freedom of speech" at the University for threatening to arrest these people, and claim that there should be this "sort of debate" going on on a University campus - when was the last time you were part of the university community? Probably a long freaking time. Who are you to prescribe what should be occurring in one? Healthy debate is good yes, but subjecting unwilling participants to view graphic and disturbing displays is a whole 'nother bag of potato chips. So just shut up and let the University alone. You probably never even saw the posters, but you heard them crying out for their right to free speech and felt the need to jump right in.
What about my rights as a passerby that are being infringed on? The SU and University are in support of the rights of free speech, but they also recognize the rights of the passerby. Thank you SU and the University for protecting the rights of your students! I stand by your decision. For those on the outside of the situation who really have no idea what's going on, please just stay on the outside of the decision.
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